In the fall of 2009, I created a new tattoo design. It took hours to do but it was really special to me. When I was finished with the rough draft, I asked Dan for his opinion and if he thought it would be silly to actually get it done?
He loved it. In fact, he loved it so much that he asked how I felt about him getting one to match. It made me feel great that not only was it good enough that he approved, but sentimental enough that he wanted it for himself. As we all know, a tattoo is forever.
This was the design
For 2 years, this was planned. For two years, this was put off. We didn't get it done in time before he deployed because of everything else we had going on, and then for the next 9 months I was pregnant with Kaylee and since then, we had just been really busy.
Now it is pretty obvious that he is no longer getting the tattoo, or I'm sure it is safe to assume. But what about me?
I put so much thought into making it and it symbolizes my strongest beliefs in one simple picture. I have wanted this done for years, and my views on marriage have not changed. Despite everything I've been through since October, I stand firm in the values I hold.
On the other hand, I wonder if it would still have the sentimental value that it did before. I still LOVE this design so why should I let him ruin this for me? Each of my tattoos have a deeper meaning than just "ooh look, a pretty picture" and this wouldn't be any different. Who knows...maybe it would be part of the healing process, like a step in the direction of closure.
And maybe it wouldn't.
What would you do?